When I look back on things that happened in the past, I do not look to them as failures, but lessons learned. I’ve gained friends and lost friends. Some friends I keep at a distance not saying that it is the end, but continuing to work on myself for better growth. I used to be the type of person that says yes to everyone because I did not want to hurt your feelings. I used to be the person that was there when you needed me and sacrificed myself for others. I was that person that tried to be your friend but instead got rejected. I always thought critical of myself thinking that I did not deserve it.
I am tired of not being that friend you want. I am tired of putting an effort into something that others will get credit for. I am tired of sacrificing myself for your decisions and being that person that tries to lift you up. I am tired of being that person that tries to get along or hang out with the crowd that ignored me when I was not popular. I am tired of saying yes.
But know this…
My rejections turned into my will to grow. My efforts are steered toward God and me. No award is better than the reward God can give me. My distance is but a mere memory to you, but a step in the right direction for me. My growth is critical to my boundaries that keep me together. My decisions are what’s best for me. So, I am not that person anymore, because if I was, I would be still going around in the circles I chose to break. The circles are broken, the chains have no bearing, and God is guiding my path.
Be Blessed,
Relaxsista
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