During my rough times, I dealt with a lot of grief. The more loss I felt made me focus on what was going on in my life and how I was going to handle it. It was in a lot of pain and anxiety. Who I was around was not making me better, but rather worse, and continued to wreak havoc on my emotional and mental state beyond repair. It took me a while to realize it because I was always trying to make everyone happy. I was trying to be someone that I was not. I lost my hope twice and began to believe that I was the cause. I was the person that made my life hard.
One day, I decided enough was enough. I didn’t want to be that person who ate my feelings. I didn’t want to be the person who made decisions based on what others thought of me. I didn’t want to be that person who continued to smile even though my life was falling apart. I didn’t want to be with a person that made me feel like I was to blame for all the problems going on. I did not to be around people that could care less of what I did or made me feel bad about bettering myself.
I chose me. I choose to grow. I choose to make new waves and new paths. I choose to love myself and my choices. I choose to gain new hope and courage that I can do it. I choose to decide on my feelings. I can cry if I feel bad. I choose to not smile when I feel like not smiling. Not everything is all flowers and butterflies. Sometimes there will be grief, sorrow, and happiness. This is all apart of life. We live and we grow. No One should ever make you feel like you are not in control of your life. Live it like you should.
Relaxsista
Relax Sista, That's Life! 